Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in starskygirl's LiveJournal:

Friday, January 27th, 2006
12:10 am	Nerds, geeks and lovers.....a friends perspective A few friends got into a discussion about having boyfriends and how to go about therelationship and with whom..... I had to share this..... "In the wide world of dating, there are many options. Do you go for the flashy guy with the smooth smile, or the dude in the corner typing away on his laptop? The following are reasons why I think my fellow females should pay more attention to the quiet geeks and nerds, and less attention to the flashy boys. 1.) While geeks and nerds may be awkward, they’re well-meaning 9 out of 10 times. That smooth dude with the sly grin and the spider hands? Wonder what HIS intentions are... plus, I’ve never had a geek guy not call me when he said he would. Score major points THERE. 2.) They’re useful. In this tech-savvy world, it’s great to have a b/f who can make your laptop, desktop, and just about anything else that plugs into a wall behave itself. 3.) They’re more romantic than they’re given credit for. Ok true, their idea of romance might be to make up a spiffy web-page with all the reasons why they love you, with links to pics of you and sonnets and such... but hey. It lasts longer than flowers, plus you can show your friends.(Ain't that the truth!) 4.) Due to their neglected status, there are plenty to choose from. You like ‘em tall and slender? There are plenty of geeks/nerds who are. You like ‘em smaller with more meat on their bones? Got that too. 5.) They’ve got brains. Come on now, how can intelligence be a bad thing? 6.) Most are quite good at remembering dates. Like birthdates and such, especially if they know it’ll make you happy. Due again to their neglected status, they’re more attentive than guys who “have more options”. Plus, with all that down time without a steady girlfriend, they’ll likely have mental lists of all the things they’d love to do once they GOT a girlfriend. 7.) Sex. Yep. Sex. I’m not really familiar with this myself, but I’ve friends who’ve been intimate with geek guys and it’s raves all around. They say a virgin wrote the Kama Sutra... all that time thinking about sex, imagining sex, dreaming about sex, (they are male after all) coupled with a desire to make you happy? Use your imagination. Hahahahaha! 8.) They’re relatively low-maintenance. Most can be fueled on pizza, Twinkies and Mt Dew. No complicated dinners needed here, so if you’re not the best cook, eh. Can you order a pizza? 9.) Most frequent bars as often as slugs frequent salt mines. You won’t have to worry much about your geek guy getting his “groove” on with club hotties because, frankly, he’ll be too busy rooting around under his computer wondering where that spare cable went. You won’t have to worry about him flirting with other women because, 9 out of 10 times, he’ll zip right by them in a perfect b-line towards the nearest electronics store. I’ve seen this happen.Me: “Eww. Victoria Secret’s Models... They’re so skinny. How is that feminine? You can see her ribs!” Geek Guy: “ooooooo...” Me: “Hey!” *notices he is staring lustfully towards the computer store* Geek Guy: “What?” Me: “Never mind...” 10.) Although he may not want to go to every outing with you, you can arrange swaps, as in, you’ll go to his Gamer Con dressed as an elf princess if he’ll take you to the ballet. Plus, if he doesn’t want to go someplace with you, you won’t have to worry much about what he’s up to. You’ll probably come home to find him asleep on his keyboard in a sea of Mt. Dew cans with code blinking from the screen. It’s ok. He’s used to this. Just toss a blanket over him and turn out the light. 11.) His friends aren’t jerks. I can’t stress this enough. You’ll more likely get “Omg! A GIRL!! Can I see?!” than “Hey hot stuff back that ass up here and let me get some grub on...” They’re awkward geeks too and will, 9 times out of 10, treat you with the utmost respect and, more than likely, a note of awe. A cute girl picked one of their clan to date? It could happen to them! Hope! Drag some of your single girlfriends over, open up a pack of Mt. Dew, crack open the DnD set and get working. Nothing impresses geek guys more than a girl who can hack-n-slash (well ok maybe if she can code... a geek can dream). 12.) They’re rarely if ever possessive. They trust you, so you can be yourself around them. You like to walk around the house in a ratty t-shirt for comfort? He won’t care. He does too! They won’t get pissy if you don’t wear make-up or don’t want to bother primping your hair. If you gain a few pounds, they won’t try their best to make you feel like crap. 13.) They’re usually very well educated. Physics majors and the like. See #5. You won’t have to listen to him blathering on about his car (ok maybe a little), he’ll have loads of other interesting things to talk about. Politics, world events, how much the chicken burgers down at the local place rock, so long as you douse them in hot sauce... 14.) You’ll almost never have to hear, “Yaw dawg whazzap!!” plop out of their mouths. Unless it’s in jest. They spell properly, use correct punctuation, and are able to tell the difference between the toilet and the floor. They almost never get “wasted”, so you won’t have to worry about coming home to find him and his friends passed out on the floor amidst a pile of beer bottles. Mt. Dew cans, perhaps... 15.) And the final reason why geeks and nerds make great boyfriends: They actually give a damn about you. Not how you look (though that’s a plus), not how skinny you are, not how much make-up you primp yourself up with, but they like you for you. That kind of thing lasts longer than “Damn, baby, you got a fine [butt]!!!” Believe me." Food for thought ladies! dj (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 26th, 2006
11:04 pm	Beat me with a stick What a night. What an even longer day. I hustled my bum into my scheduled evening shift at school as arranged with my teacher. I drive 2 hours and get there to find out that its a 2 hour shift for me, and the teacher KNEW! So basically I made 20 bux and that covered my gas there and back. The preceptor told me that had she known, she would have told me not to come in. Lot of good that des me now. Ron is upset, mostly because even though I get paid to do this I am not making money at it and weare putting in out of our own pockets for gas (now that it went up). He wants me to quit. Its the stress as well. There have been many days I come home and just plop myself down and cry. I feel like I am going through another midlife crisis after I just got over the last one. I am questioning yet again who I am. Who am I? I thought I had this all worked out but low and behold it has come back to haunt me again. My goal ws to finish that course, enroll in the RPN with advance standing but I have thought about it and it may be time to face the facts, that I just might fail. The deaf in my class are really something else. That note taker is something too. Just because I have great oral skills they have classified me as "hearing". I dont even classify myself as hearing! Its silly and all boils own to this big D little D. Big fat deaf culture. They dont know how hard I have worked, how I had to take classes to learn to lip read, how I had to see the speach pathologist, how I've kept up my english skills, learned to sign, learned to fit in. It really stinks. They just look at me and think they see the whole package. And jealousy? Wow. That is until they come to me because they need help with their english during class. I tried to not let it bother me, I tried to help everyone but you can only do so much. I'm tired. One thing they dont like is the fact I use my voice. They told me I shouldnt because I am with the Deaf. I thought it over and wouldnt that be pretending that I am something I am not?? I never classified myself as "Deaf" just "deaf-ened". They said I should do this or do that. Why cant I just be myself..... If I finished and the took the RPN, I would be right back where I started....only on the other side of the coin. I will be with hearing and have an interpreter. They will be questioning my abilities because of my lack of hearing. Arrgghhh. I have what Deanna Bray coins "the worst of both worlds." Aint it the truth. I am going to call Kathy tmrw and see what she says. To be honest I dont think she will care much. They dont really deal with problems well. I am going to have to quit. I'm going to miss Susan alot. She was the only ally I had and she understood me..... Yawn...need sleep. l8r Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: Dirty Deeds (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
10:26 pm	Stormy Weather ahead......duh Well folks, imagine that. I've managed to post here for three days in a row. It's a record! lol The weather can't decide what it wants to do, rain or snow. Its snowing right now but was raining earlier. I just wish it would make up its mind. Its so depressing right now. I think we could all use some sunshine, don't you agree? School was a disaster again today. They came up to me just before it ended and asked me to tutor someone who is doing poorly and that means I would have to stay until 4. I would also have to drive home during peak rush hour. I wanted to scream because they still have not addressed any of the problems that I brought forth to them yet they want me to do this. Despite the communication problem between this girl and myself (I brought that up as well) they still think it would be a great idea. Not. I am really thinking about just leaving. I have had enough for sure. Its causing me alot of stress. Hubby is not too happy either. I realized that nothing will be done about anything there. I wonder if the Ministry of Colleges and Universities would like to know about the goings on there since they are paying for all of this? Ugh. Hot potatoe, hot potatoe! I actually got to sit and write for a few moments tonight. I am trying to finish a story off from a few years ago called Hunters Hollow. Its a SH fanfic piece. People keep asking about it, and whether or not I will be finishing it. I decided that I need a diversion for awhile so I am going to try to pick it up again and see what happens. This whole thing right now with my life being topsy turvey has made me wonder who I am and where do I belong? What world do I sit in? Hearing or deaf? My own mother doesn't even want to sit and have a conversation with me. AT best I get less than 5 minutes out of her. After this experience in the deaf classroom, I am actually scared. Do I sit and write notes my whole life or just sit in silence and not talk at all.... Try to stay upbeat, try to stay upbeat! Hubby got a new job. He starts Feb 6 and he is quite happy with himself. I am glad for him. It means less stress but in a different way. The place he is at now can get quite stressful. No one realy knows what they are doing and he would never be able to advance his position any further than he is at now. One guy told him a few years ago that it would be a tragedy for the comany to lose him. I honsetly believe that they never thought he would ever go because he has taken so much. No one saw this coming. No one thought he would go. I can't wait until he tells me what their reactions were. lol If God is such a great god and he doesn't want us to suffer, why does he cause such situations aswar and famine? l8r Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Monday, January 23rd, 2006
10:37 pm	Rotten Day folks Oh man. I should have stayed in bed all day. School was a write off because that bitchy note taker was on my butt again. I spent my entire lunch photocopying notes I was missing and handouts. Then I was hole punching them so they could go into my binder. The class came back from lunch and the teacher was just getting into what we were supposed to be doing next and I had 3 more copies of notes to punch. I walked over to the garbage can and emptied the hole puncher, then went back to mY seat. Punched the first set, punched the second set....went to punch the 3rd set and she let me have it not to mention telling me I should wait until the class was done and that I was disrupting the entire class. EXCUSE ME? The class is DEAF?!?!? They werent even paying any attention to me. Well, that did it. It was either leave the room or say something profane to her so I left. I went down to the Education Managers office and complained. By this time I was crying. I"m just so sick of it. And when its not me, its TK for tighting the velcro on his shoe and if its not that its someone else for tapping their pencil. They dont even hear those noises. You should see her if someone's hearing aid squeals. And she is nicer to everyone else when she pulls her shtick. The manager listened but its doubtful she will actually do anything about it. If it keeps up I may have to launch a Human RIghts Dispute against the school AND the note taker. 8 weeks or no, I can't take it. I've made everyone down here aware of her, and why not to use her services. I've also been thinking of opening up a note taking service of my own. Why not. I have the skills, I have the equipment and I dont have her attitude. I think I could make it work. There is a need. More to think about. I drove home and went to my doctors appointment. Never was I so glad to leave Toronto in my life. Even when I brought my son home from his open heart surgery and thought I was glad to leave- that pales in comparison! The Doc and I talked about some of it. He said that he admires me, especially for driving during peak hours to make my appt with him. He said I should stick it out and show her and the rest of them that to spite them I will make it through that course. I laughed and asked him if that means I need to come in every day. I told him at this rate I'll need nerve blocks for headaches every day from him. He laughed. He reminded me how far I have come since he started there 4 years ago. He's right. But I am still weak. My stomach hurts (I think my ulcer is back) and I am tired. Tired of the 2 hour each way drive (if nothing goes wrong on the hiway) the bullshit, the gossip and back biting. I feel beaten down. I'm not my usual upbeat self. And you know, its really odd because this has never happened to me before. I usually function very high in the classroom setting, helping others out with their work and making alot of friends. Not his time. My leg hurts from the drive, my butt hates those hard chairs. I'm just so tired. They say in the end it will be worth it, but I seriously doubt it. I gotta go try to sleep. L8r. Current Mood: angry Current Music: TNT- ACDC (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
2:06 pm	Ugh...school I'm sitting here chillaxin for awhile. It's nice to have some peace , away from the kids and just by myself. I discovered that I need to buy a new web cam. My little VP Eye doesnt want to run on my laptop, and of course its a Win98 driver which doesn't help any. Oh well. Maybe at the end of the week I will go out to Best Buy or something and get one. And then if I feel up to it I will make a Vblog entry. Ugh, vblog. That just reminded me that tomorrow is school again. I am beginning to detest it more and more, so much that it gives me a stomach ache just to think about it. I can deal with the deaf class mates, its the damned note taker that I can't deal with. Never in my life have I met a less genuine, phony, nosey and down right irratating individual. NEVER. She reminds me of one of those Nazi women dressed up in an SS uniform (if they could get one that big)carrying a riding crop. All she would need is a german accent. She has totally forgotten ANY ethics she may have ever had, forgetting she has been hired as a service to US and not the other way around. No one can make a noise in the class and if they do, look out! Ugh. Its actually so petty, the things she does. I should laugh at her but when you are the one she has targeted for her wrath, watch it. I should feel sorry for her. Obviously she has no control over her pathetic life and so she feels she must come into our classroom and try to control our every move, or at least my every move. Something funny she did a few weeks ago....she had a coughing fit (was that her choking???????) and one of the other students offered her a cough drop. She declined saying it had sugar in it and since she had adult onset diabetes she couldn't have it. Then less than 20 minutes later she starts to eat a chocolate bar...yes I am serious. A regular plain old sugar filled chocolate bar. I think it was an O Henry or something. The student looked at me and signed "what the....." and shrugged. Me I just grinned. Typical. The office staff don't care probably because I have been the only one to complain about her. Everyone else either doesnt care or are too scared to say anything. The teacher doesn't say anything to her either because they are buddies. We have 8 more weeks left. I just wish she'd go away until then. I have alot of work to catch up on but my friend...let's call her SuzyQ...has been helping me by getting the notes and hand outs. SuzyQ is an incredibly smart and sensible individual not to mention she has the best pair of eyes I have ever seen! They are like blue pools, in a color so awesome and they are real! Not like fake contact lenses. To me the eyes are the gateway to the soul, and this gal has alot of soul. I'm lucky to have her as a friend. When we are finished school I am going to stay in touch even though we live over 100 miles apart. Well, this brings my chill time to an end. I need to go do some house work in a big way before we all get lost here (grin). Since I have been in school I come home and am soo tired I get nothing done. I am behind on everything now. Dishes, laundry, painting, cleaning, dusting. Ugh. Till next time.... (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 21st, 2006
5:44 pm	All gone :( My snow...I knew it was to good to be true! Drats! Somebody oughta have a talk with Mother Nature! Current Mood: cold (Comment on this)
9:29 am	I got my wish but only briefly. Its SNOWING!!!!!! Not going to last though, maybe a day or two and its only supposed to be 3cm but hey! Its white! And its not rain!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:45 am	Where is the snow..... It's too early to be up and about but I just can't sleep. My neck is bothering me and no matter how I lay my head on the pillow, nothing seems to help. Its dark outside. I don't think I will ever like daylight savings time. Usually around this hour the sun is trying its best to peek thru the darkness and make its presence known to my little corner of the world, but for now it hides its face behind a veil of clouds. Its windy and I can tell its raining by the diagonal droplets that were lashed against my bedroom window. Its very odd to see the grass in my back yard. Where is the snow? Is that freezing rain?? At this time of year we are supposed to have a blanket of snow covering the the city. I remember being 5 years old and waking up christmas morning before my folks were up, dragging my brother out of bed so we could sneak into the livingroom and see what Santa had left us. I peaked out out livingroom window and saw everything covered in snow and the wind softly blowing. Daylight had just arrived and there was still a sliver of a crescent moon in the sky. My dad always had these 45 gallon drums around at one time or another and on this morning true to form he had one in front of the garage door. It had gotten blown over on its side and the wind was gently rocking it back and forth on our snowy driveway. We had tons of snow! We went tobogganing all of the time and the snow banks were at least 3 feet high or more. We even had 6 foot drifts in places. Westmount Road would have banks so tall I couldnt see past them in the back seat of our car. What happened??? When I think about our lack of snow over the years, my mind always conjures up that christmas morning image with the green 45 gallon drum and the moon. I don't know exactly why. Maybe it was the odd beauty of it all to a small kid on christmas morning, heck I can almost smell it still. Where is the snow... I need a cup of tea. I think I will meander down stairs to make one. Or maybe not...hmmmm Tim's or Tea? Rain. Of all things in the middle of January. Next thing you know I'll be seeing lightning and thunder. Is this an effect of green house gases? (Slingblabe voice on...) "It just aint natural..." I just got my Sidekick to check my email and lo and behold, Danger's email server is down again. I wish Fido would get a server of their own, not to mention a better catalogue. That probably won't happen. Sometime later today (if I am lucky) I will have about 400 waiting emails. Did I mention how much I love my Sidekick II? No seriously, I really like it. Its saved my butt on more than one occassion. Take Wednesday for instance. I was driving home from school (deaf PSW/Lab course)in a freezing rain storm. It got really nasty out very fast and parts of the 401 had slowed to a dead crawl. Just past Milton, I glanced down and discovered my gas gauge at E and no exit in sight. (This is where someone should make a stobe light for when you're almost empty LOL) The cell phone portion of the SK2 is not that loud so I quickly IM'd my son who was at home and had him call to check and see if I had gas coverage with my auto plan. I ended up having the coverage and I could get my son to give them the information. All I had to do was send it to him as we IM'd back and forth. I ended up driving another 20 km or so and found an open exit and then I IM'd him to let him know I was ok and had found a gas station. Life is sweet sometimes. It's the little things. My back kitchen roof is leaking water all over the floor but my big boy Jake (100 pound King German Shepherd Dog) is licking my face good morning. My basement flooded a week before christmas but the tree and prezzies were safe. We were all together for Christmas and the turkey was good. Mmmmmmmmmm....turkey! The people who matter most, the ones who love me still have their patience and have not strangled me yet! Life is sweet sometimes I tell yah! Now for my Tims. Yes, I've decided. Instead of trudging in the snow for a block with my trusty service dog at my side, I will have to jump in the van and drive up there. Unless its freezing rain....then tea it is! Current Mood: groggy Current Music: Moonlight Sonata (Comment on this)